Letter Of Recommendation

I'm trying to get admission
But my credits fall just shy
So much time devoted
Wait listed I wonder why
Did I miss some history
Fall short in chemistry
Eclipsing mystery
Why acceptance keeps missing me
Don't need much accommodation
Can I get a letter of recommendation?

I've taken many classes
In life skills I got schooled
I had some hard lessons
Passed
Then flunked for being fooled
Insecurities
Keeping me from my full capabilities
Fallacious arrogance
Letting these teachers mislead me
Such a smart girl
The world should be amazed
Your spontaneity
Creativity
You've got the fire to set the world ablaze
Now Here I am at graduation
And all I can say
Could you write what you just said
In a letter of recommendation one day.

Guess the time I've spent learning
Ain't enough to be
Considered for higher learning
Since so many rejections come to me
High school was easy
Had it all figured out
Now when it's on to college
Guess I'm just a college drop out
I've made mistakes before
Can't promise I won't make them again
I'm just looking for a recommendation
Not an excuse
A pass
Or an easy way in
I'm just looking for the chance to redeem myself my friend.

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