A Tiger and Her Stripes

I wish I'd  known about this scripture years ago. I wish it had jumped off the page and into my mind; alas it did not. Instead, here I am in awe of the words written before me. You see when I started searching the scriptures this morning I was looking for something on the kindness of Christians and it brought me to 1 John 3:18-19, but when I kept reading, this particular verse stuck out to me.

Romans 8:30 And those He predestined, He also called; and those He called, He also justified; and those He justified, he also glorified. This scritpture serves as a constant reminder that my calling has been justified. It seems silly that God called me to so something and even as I walk in it I find myself doubting it, but when I step back and look at the big picture I realize it's not the calling I have doubt in; it is myself. Am I writing what God wants me to write? Am I intepreting the scripture correctly? Is this really my calling or just my talent? These are all questions I have asked myself at some time or another, sometimes multiple times a month. As I get closer to the release of my first contemporary Christian fiction book the words of this scripture are all the more real to me. 

I'm sorry it's been awhile since Ihave engaged with you, my faithful readers. A lot has been going, I hope that you are able to forgive me.  Now, with that said I will try to update you on what has been going on with me lately. As you all know from my previous entry Just(in) Grief 2  I've been greiving the loss of the Love of my life for over a year now. As of two weeks ago I was hit with yet another loss of someone very close to me, my ex stepchild and sons brother. It was as unexpected incident in which he lost his life. This rocked me to my core. He was such a special child, he knew no stranger and was always happy. At the memorial they made the comment that the song by Pherrell Happy was a great song that made you think of him, and it couldn't be more true. He's resting with God now and although I am truly saddened by his absence from us I am happy that he is in the best place he could be. After Trevon's passing I finally took the step to seek help and joi