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For my future husband

My dearest love,
I pray your day was filled with joy. You crossed my mind often and if I could have told you I would have. I live for the twinkle in your eye and the smile on your face. I wonder if you are waiting for God to reveal me to you as I know he has already revealed you to me. He's already told me that there would never be a dull conversation between us. That we would share many laughs together. That we would always hold each other up and be unafraid to communicate and take everything to God in prayer. He's told me that I can trust you with my deepest fears and greatest desires. He has already told me that aside from him there is no one will who will encourage me more than you. There is nothing I guess about you, God has told me that he has made you perfectly imperfect for me and that when the time is right we will give our hearts to each other before Him. I can't help but miss you right now. I can hardly wait for the promise that God has for us to be fulfilled. I know that you think of me as I think of you. Just wanted to get this from my heart to your eyes.
Love you in advance,
The woman with many names

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  1. This is beautiful and powerful, passionate and heartfelt, I can feel the love you have for the future God has in store, I love it 😊

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