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Gay Marriage

6-26-2015 Gay Marriage became legal across the united states. I've seen post after post after post celebrating its legalization. I personally have mixed emotions about ruling. Here are my reasons why...
I originally voted FOR the legalization of gay marriage. I remember the day I voted plain as day. I was getting ready to go vote and my mother looked at me and said remember to vote against it. I rolled my eyes and voted for it. I didn't really think that it would pass for Kentucky but I figured if they want to get married why not. Who am I to judge them if they want to get married it doesn't affect me... I was young stupid and I had personal reasons as to why I was for it at the time. I'm not old but it seems like a lifetime ago. Fast forward to today's (6-26-2015) ruling. I've felt unsettled since the ruling. I've seen so much. People happy about it people saying that's great what about legalizing being black in America and people completely ignoring it altogether. My First thought was that of Sodom and Gomorrah and its destruction. The thing about Sodom and Gomorrah is that it is not a story I am completely familiar with and I actually had to google where to find it in my bible. (Genesis 19:1-29) It struck me as strange to think of this because it was something I remembered from childhood and all I could really remember was Lot's wife turning into a pillar of salt for turning back when God told her not to. I guess that is the watered down version we receive as children. You probably think that I am going to rest on Sodom and Gomorrah and go into a tangent on how America is modern day Sodom and Gomorrah and blah blah blah blah blah. Nope not my aim. 
I figured out that I have been troubled because I am propelled by today's ruling to explain to my children FURTHER about what the bible says about homosexuality. My children are 6, 11, and 9. I've explained some things to my two oldest because I know how to relay to them in terms that they can understand at that age. I keep thinking about the article that once surface about teachers in Canada that have been teaching children to accept Gay marriage and same sex couples as normal, I fear that that is something that will happen in the United States in the near future. 
I grew up with the knowledge that homosexuality or being gay was wrong. I don't remember who told me who taught me that I just remember always knowing that it was wrong. These new generations will grow up accepting it as normal because legislation just said it's normal. One of my best girlfriends is a bisexual, I once upon a time identified as bisexual, and as you can imagine my ex-girlfriend is lesbian. I do not approve of the lifestyle. I have repented for my part in the lifestyle and have faith in the forgiveness promised through my conviction and repentance. If they want to get married that is certainly on them. The closer I have come to God and the more time I have spent in his word my views on homosexuality has changed. I was lukewarm about it. It didn't bother me one way or the other because I am no longer bound to that sin. Lately I have felt differently, knowing what I know seeing the instructions plainly laid out in front of me, understanding God's plan for his people. Understanding God's love for his people I find that I cannot accept the lifestyle. I will never be rude to anyone who is I'm nice to everyone... for the most part. LoL But I can't wave my finger at them and say shame on you, the fact of the matter is that most of the people I know who are gay are some of the nicest sweetest people you will ever meet and that just makes me want to see them in heaven. I feel like there is something wrong with society. I feel like they have a need to fit everyone into categories. In studying to be content in my singleness I have come to the conclusion that not everyone in this world is meant to be with someone. I have friends that I watch their ministry and their praise and often wonder do they want a spouse. Looking at them however I can see how content they are with not having one Of course this is outside observation and I can't account for what they feel on the inside. I can only tell you that I am not mean to be single. Unless God decides to change this I've known this since I was a little girl. I was only ever meant to be a wife. My Aunt Kay had me confused a as a child. My mother was a single mother, my Aunt Dora even had one child of course she never dated and the one man I thought was interested in her I don't think she was interested in him... I don't know I feel like he got friend zoned so I knew that at one point she desired a husband and my mother still jokes she's waiting on her rich husband. But my aunt Kay growing confused me. She never had a boyfriend never expressed an attraction to men at all come to think of it. Once I got older I never got the courage to ask her if she was gay. I don't know if she was or not I just know that she was okay with not being with a man. Think about my memory of her though, as a child I didn't question it but as I got older and was in more of the world, why was my automatic reaction to think she was gay? Why is it easier to believe someone wants to be with the same sex than believe that they are just content with living their life? The ruling didn't create the assumption that if someone doesn't want to be with someone of the opposite sex that they are gay, that has been a societal norm for quite some time. This ruling if left unexplained to children will have them thinking that because they may have been adopted like myself to a single parent household that if that parent chooses not to date that their parent may be gay. This ruling has opened the flood gates for a different kind of hate in America. One day it will go from Black Lives matter to what they are trying to over shadow it with which is All Lives Matter to Gay Life Matters. I'm not saying the gay community is going to take over and everything is going to look like that rainbow world on Lego Movie. I'm saying that where we as Christians stand on homosexuality, the division of church and state legislation will also eventually be attacked and the persecution of the Church will begin the inevitable one world religion. 
These are my views. These are my truths. I may have some of my LBGT friends upset with me they may even stop talking to me or talk about me. Its not natural it has never been natural, if you were never taught that it was wrong you would still know that it is not right. I pray for every one of my friends. Gay or Straight. I will never teach my children to hate but they will plainly know what the bible says is right and wrong. 

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